Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Reason Why I dont Have an Instagram Account



All in all, I dont remember when was the last time I decided to closed my Instagram account. so far I know, it was last year and this is my second year of not having one. People do ask why I closed my instagram account at first, but I really dont have an exact answers to tell them. Well honestly, how to tell them. For me, Instagram is a medium where you exposed yourself the way you wanted it. It is a world where you can design how you want to be seen.
Well, that is it. I cant,I just cant. People keep showing off things I dont have, things I dont own, things I cant be. Thats making me pretty depressed about my social world. We often want things cant have.
Pretty girls been showing how flawless they are, rich kids been showing off their wealthiness and stuff. Im sure it has nothing wrong with me but it just disturbed my insecurities for a couple seconds while I stared at their pictures.
Insecurities. To be honest, I have big issues of insecurities. I also have been depressed over silly things nowadays. Small issues sometimes make me feel left out. Why cant I just be happy like her?Why cant I be pretty too? Why am I stuck such in a rural place? Why why why.
One question. Are you satisfied with yourself? I dont. Not yet. Maybe I'll get back having an instagram account when Im done with myself. I've set my target to get my foot to oversea and will consider of having one when I'm there. I guess it was kind of reward for myself. I dont know? A kind of satisfaction i guess i would like to thank myself? Actually,  I hate to have my life exposed. But yeah, at least when I'm out of Malaysia no one would really know how my life will be there. While in Malaysia I guess I have nothing much to show. I hate pretending things I dont have; happiness.

P/s ; I had to make an instagram account for my instashop, It's for my assignment please follow @naneytee.co (thanks!)
Xoxo, A

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Agony



Hello earthlings. Life has been hitting me so bad right now. I cant even imagine the amount of stressed and depression i must undergo week by weeks. Unfortunately I cant even be done of it. Same bullshit, different days. Ive tried being positive and that's when im not alone and surrounded with positive people and foremostly doing things that make me forget all those problems. Luckily, last week i got myself to a convention in Selangor and I really glad i made it as an escapism trip for myself. I had lot of fun and most importantly, i forget and leave everything behind.

Recently I just found out that i've got some haters issue. the irony is when it was from the people who has been rarely talking to you, not caring a shit about you. Yea, its them who talk bad behind our back. Seriously dude, i dont give a single fuck abt people who thinks they know me well and spread negative vibes about me.