Sunday, August 9, 2015

Sweater weather

Assalamualaikum. It's been a while now since I was last seen on this blog. I have pass my semester 1 exam and break and raya celebration and it was all good to me. I am currently on my semester 2 and I currently enjoying the subjects I need to learn this semester. I'm done with accounting and now I have corporate finance's subject. It was a bit nervous at first but after lots of exercises and quizzes I think my fear to numbers has decreased.

Oh my currency? Hmmm these few weeks are not easy to me. First of all, my laptop can't restart and it was a good timing because we have a lot of assignments that needed a laptop to finish it :'))
Next, my only gold bracelet that i always wore 24/7 has broken. I don't know, I feel sad when I'm not wearing it. The bracelet reminds me of my family and our good times together. And also that I feel they are near with me even we are 500+ kilometers apart. And the very best part of my weeks is........................ I BROKE MY IPHONE (yay). Oh my goodness how on earth would I like to break my own phone(????!!!) It fell off the stairs, i slipped it off my hand. Ok...... actually I was trying to get to the ground floor to get some water for iftar and yes it was magrhrib's time. I don't know maybe some evil devil has bumped into me that made my phone slipped from my hand. My iphone is now collapsed. The screen has apart from the body. Luckily, the components in the phone are still alright, which i mean, umm they're still working for alarm clock and azaan for prayer times (hihi).I don't know when I'm going to repair it as I don't have enough money right now, and asking from parents make me feel uneasy. Sometimes I ever think that everything that happen to me is Allah want to show me what else could make me feel distracted from Him? Yes, indeed it was and I am. I'm getting my way back. Nothing could make me feel more calm than sitting alone, praying, be long in my sujood, and reading His Quran. No excitement can beat that.

And my relationship. The graph has been rapidly going up and down these few weeks and it's going further below this week. He got lots of tests and can't be there for me. Even that lots of pressure hit me this week, but he still can't make it there. Maybe I'm too pushing(?) Maybe. I know that he tried. But I'm sorry my emotions take me down. I just need you to give some attention to me, calm me down because this week is not easy to me. But I know, you got your tests, your stress from the tests to spill out and that make me your last thing to remember at night, at least. Thank you for those nights I was calling you all night but you weren't there, busy playing futsal till early in the morning and didn't leave a single care because you were too tired to give a damn attention. Thank you for those nights I was crying and you weren't there, too. I'm sorry I'm not being understanding. I'm really sorry. Yes, I'm ignoring you now but I still waiting for your call. I'll wait.

BTW, I have public speaking tomorrow please pray for me! It will be in the cafetaria in front of the seas of people. Oh my God, I'm so nervous please please make du'a for me!
P/s: im deactivating my twitter till i got my handphone repaired.

xoxo, A.

Monday, February 16, 2015

Tell me incredible things.

Hi and Assalamualaikum.
It's been a while since I decided to get in this college and sorry for not updating all those stuff. There's been an up and down for me. But so far I can handle this. Thanks a lot to my bestest friends whose still keep in touch with me through what's app and everything. To those whose willing to walk in my life and get to know me. Not to forget my family who's always being there supporting me. I feel so blessed. There's about 10 days more till I get home. I hope everything's will keep going so well. Oh and there's about 10 days to keep those memories with this first-batch-spc students in here bcs some of us wouldn't be back after taking their spm's result. Yes, I will feel those emptiness without each one of us. We've been together for about 22 days and we're still doing it good. I believe everyone of us who stays will feel that emptiness. Thank you for all the laughters, dancing, bonding and every single things we've been through together. 

Ps: I'm ready for more excitement! Xoxo, A.

Saturday, January 17, 2015

Ringing my doorbell

I wanna share something since people keep congratulate and wishing me luck on getting the offer to pursuing my studies in KPM for Dip. in Logistic Management.
Well actually this news is kinda surprising me bcs a week ago i'll already called KPM and they told me that i was unqualified till Hanis Masturah tweeted me and ask if I got the offer as well as she got.
Then I told that KPM rejected my appliance. She then asked me to check my email inbox. Surprisingly En. Maizul from KPM sent me the offer for that DLM's course. Long story short, I think I'm going. InshaAllah.

Tett. Nampak mcm confident je kan? I'm actually about 60-40%. Tapi ntah lah sebab I'm considering about my spm's result gak. Then yesterday I called Andreza sebab dia daftar in KPM Ayer Molek for accountancy, he told me to take it sebab the entry fees is just RM280 for the first 2 months-- 2 months tu pun belum start belajar lagi bcs we'll having the kursus, projek, kepimpinan and so on. Plus, kalau rasa nak tarik diri pun boleh if you think about giving up in that course or your spm's result is better for other's course. BUT! I suggest you to not take the allowance Mara gave you.

But currently we're on the waiting list because they're short-listing the names. I hope I'm in the list, pray for me!

xoxo, A.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Refresh button.

Bismilahirahirahmanirahim and Assalamualaikum earthlings.
Yea I guess this is the refresh point of my life, where I think I can get all over again and start new.
A friendly greetings to all who's currently reading this right now.
Honestly I do admit that i kinda missing my old blog which I've been deleted for some reasons, or maybe not looking back for what I've been through for this past 2 years.
I do miss the passion of expressing thoughts into words. I miss it how I wrote long entries about my everyday life, interesting moment or some lessons that I've learned in my life.
I miss it having the excitement when people told you that they read your blog, and they asked you to write again! I do miss it.
But like i said, this is the refresh point where you start all over again with a new feeling, new you.
I may miss all those feelings I had in the past. And yeah that's why it's called 'past' - you cant rewind them. But I believe, we can do better.

So I thought that I can put something beneficial in this like my experience on joining something? My life path? Some tips? Life lessons? -- hoping there would be a reason why people should following me, haha lol maybe, InshaAllah :) Oh and I really enjoy travel and I hope this blog would record every moment I've been into.

p/s; Have u ever wake up in the morning and feels like you wanna drop? Dizziness fills your head, and you almost lost your balance. I do. I hope that's bcs I'm such an owl who always sleeps late at night and overslept till matahari terpacak atas kepala?. Lewls, I should stop this. Refresh please!

xoxo, A.